hello everybody. i passed my first semester of college. yay for me(hint the sarcasm). i feel sorry for people sometimes. namely myself. i feel my heart fall further and further into darkness. i dont know if it is because i am lonely or if i am reverting back to my old ways, where everything didnt matter, i had no friends. i dont think i want that to happen again. well i will leave it at that today. TTFN.

hi all.  I FINALLY GOT MY HIPPIE GLASSES, WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!!!  iruka, esaria, and myself are looking for the ingredients for the stone of the sages(philosophers stone).  we will succeed, i know it.  iruka wishes to get money out of our work. esaria and myself are looking toward physical immortality.  i think maybe my life is slowly slipping away. i will explain that some other time.  i hope iruka is ready to fight hari on saturday.  i think he has some sort of plan but who is to say?  well i gotta go to class so take care all!  TTFN!!!!!

DIAMOND

hello all.  i am doing good in college, and i changed my degree to sociology with an emphasis on criminal justice.  i learned that there are only 2 people i can trust: esaria(amber) and myself. iruka has become different in so many aspects. one aspect is how much he trusts me and esaria, but he denies that he stopped trusting us. until he learns that trish is never going to be his he will live a life of misery and will eventually lose his friends. so my advice to him is: GET OVER IT. it has come to a point that i dont care what he does just as long as he doesnt involve me in it. well that is all for now.  talk to you later.

DIAMOND

Lately i have been questioning myself and i am not sure why. i question if my intentions are true and kind. i dont like to fight in anger but i sometimes do. why? i have lost control over my energies and therefore i cant use my ki yet again. this is rather troublesome for me and will probably be troublesome for Kadaj and Envy. what did i do to lose my ki. my chakras are becoming stronger. i am learning to channel them. i gave up on my dream of physical immortality for the time being. i dont want to end up seeing the gate again. i wish i could share my secrets with someone trustworthy other than Envy( no offense to you Kadaj), i trust her and all but i dont want to stress her out even more than she already is. i am going to grow my hair out and maybe dye it, not sure what color but....i will figure it out. i know i am boring you but get over it people. we are currently trying to find an earth adept. we have water(me), wind/air(Envy/Amber), and fire(Kadaj/Tim). i feel sorry for my father, his checks are being garnished at 75% a paycheck. means tight budgeting unless mom gets the job she wants,so GOOD LUCK MOM. well i will wrap this up for now take care all.......................Bye.

DIAMOND

WOOHOOOOOOOO, finally finished with high school that damn graduation ceremony was boring but fun if that makes any sense! I hope that one day i will be able to allow Envy(Amber) to spread her wings, but as of now i dont want her to grow up. i dont want her to change although i know she will. i start college on May 30 so i am kinda nervous about that. i wonder if i will still have time to do the things i enjoy. i think my life is so screwed up but i am still chugging along. in the kind words of one of my mentors i am the little engine that could. i will finish college and prove my ex-therapist wrong! and then i will laugh at him. amy says that she will spit on my grave when i am gone, which is fine by me because if you want to get technical i will never be gone. at least the rest of my family is accepting my decisions. they still dont like to talk about me being a witch but they are accepting what they cannot change, which is fine with me. well thanx to reokoatsai my life is changing. i must thank him for being there when i needed help, so reokoatsai THANK YOU. you are the only true friend i have ever had, i know i dont act like much of a friend at times but that is because i have never had friends so i still dont know how to act sometimes. well i think thats all for now. TTFN.

DIAMOND